reason

There are tons of reason for everything
Yet, I'm so confuse...
I totally have no idea what to do with my life
A friend of mine told me that, what we do in our 20's, is to prepare for our 30's
we have to prepare for our future and be responsible to ourselves.
I do agree with that..
Sometimes i wonder what's wrong with me, is it just simply mood swing? or I'm just depressing...
I have so many doubts
doubts for the reason I'm living
doubts for my present and future
doubts with the man I wanted to be with
But I thank my friend that always reminds me
By reminding me that everything happen for a reason
and we are created for a reason too...and this reason may not be something big.

ALLY IS GONE

She isn't the same girl that she was before...
Her soul is gone...
The feeling of insecurity is taking over her...
The positive and cheerful girl is gone...
The only thing left is her physical body, which she moves on every single day
Life is so clueless
What she is doing is just to move on in the present time
It's simple to be said then to be done
Is she really moving on?
Nobody knows
She must be out of her mind

Hola!

I'm such a lazy bug. Haven't been updating for...I dun even remember...

Ali's Wonderland is kinda like abandon? Oh nooo ooo ooo ooo ooo

I was trying to sent out my resume asap, as usual, EY replied me "we regret to inform you that...bla bla bla" I was expecting PWC will reply the same thing to, so my backup plan is to get a JOB when I'm back in KL. Surprisingly, they reply me with the title "Greetings from pwc M'sia" I was like so amazed. But guess what, it's actually I'm too lazy, i sent my resume directly and they reply me to do the online application...swt...

The online application isn't as simply as i thought. Too many information to be filled in, and I think I'm having memory loss...and now I'm having information shortage to fill in...I need recovery to backup me~

Well...unsually, I online tonight, I haven't been online for like years, just because my poor lappy having cooling problem that it shuts itself down so often. Jaime came to chat with me, telling me that he is coming to Indonesia and Malaysia next year hopefully if he gets his visa. What a shame that he is learning Indon, and trying to converse with me in bahasa. I'm like, hello, i dunno bahasa that well and he said: I though you are native? or at least you are staying there.........aweeee...shame on me! >,< I gotta improve on my bahasaaaaaaaa

So i was asking him to recommend me some spanish songs...and when i heard salsa, I'm so in love with it. Recalls the memory when I was work and travelling. How I admire latino's passion for live.

Music* passion* dance* live* life*

I really wish I could dance, not in a cacat way T_T The other day, was watching 'Genie' music video, both of us were trying to learns their steps, it wasn't easy but we insist though... at least we got the kicking part! LOL

I wanna learn Salsa...shake my hips and shake off all my extra chubby chubby part!

lazy bug

Perhaps I've been bitten by a lazy bug. It's already week two and I seriously still have not feel any FORCE of studying. Oh dear, I really need lot's of motivation to push me~ push push push

Watched One Miss Call with Olly and Huey last nite and i seriously doubt that it's a horror movie.
Cause the ghost kills through online, and actually breakdown when there's too much spam, and finally kills again after its recovery. wth?

I wanna watch real horror movie...

I'm coming back!

I'm coming back to miri tomorrow. Well there are times that I wanted to go back miri, but then for sure when I'm back there I'll be missing here again.... awe~

My daddy and mummy are coming to miri with me, I dunno why it just seems to be kinda weird, but i think it's gonna be nice :)

Had lunch with Jack at Sakae just now, and I made him buy me lunch, oh evil me! hehe. After I've tried Zanmai, I really don't like Sakae anymore. Sorry to say, Sakae, u're out!

Facebook is very effective communication channel. Recently, i've just added my auntie and my cousins. It seems that she's kinda adicted to FB, cause when my auntie ask my email, my cousin warn me that my auntie is going to sent tons of application. LOL. My mum dun even know what is FB.

Also, I got to know through FB that a girl i knew when i was in english camp had just delivered a baby, and she's one year younger than me! Am imaginig a baby in my tummy, some how this seems to be kinda scary. Oh...young mummy, I'm too young to carry a baby.

Relating to this, i companied my mum to see marternal doctor. When we stepped in the clinic, everyone seems to be looking at me, i think it's more like she company me rather than i company her see doctor.

Doctor seems very chatty that day, he keep telling me that a guy fight his life for the world, and a woman just need to capture his heart to own the world, and repeated many times to take his advice. Weird isn't it? The doctor's wife was very chatty that day too! First she ask me if i wanna take a jab to prevent for dunno which female illness cancer. Then my mum and her started taking about sex, because sex is the cause for having all this related cancer. The doctor's wife then says that there are many teenagers give birth in their clinic, cause they are too young, so they have to register their baby under the teenager's parent name. Most of them are smart in studies, very diligence and some are christian. how sad to hear about this. What's wrong with our society?

I saw robert post this in FB "Cos nobody knows what's coming...so why not take a chance on loving?" Well Huey's man told me this theory before too...

hmm... true also, why not?

Oh, I'm coming back miri tomorrow! Kinda exicited to hear that KN is having his internship in sibu. I know that sibu isn't that near too, but i do hope he can come and visit me! Cause i heard he has relatives here, boleh beri lots of makanan. So nice man ;) KN faster come visit me please!

Baby I still believe

Just because Jacq's friend called her during her lecture, singing baby i still believe to her while her lecturer was walking towards her. She was so annoyed that she ask us all to Sing K. The Singing K session was pretty good, and Jacq also called back her friend to revenge by singing that person a song. LOL

It came across my mind that I should go and cut or trim my hair before leaving for miri. If not my hair will certainly becomes my cap in a way. So we headed to pyramid. It cost Rm15 for a stylist to cut your hair, and a professional will cost Rm 43, it's kinda struggle, but in the end i decided to let the professional to cut my hair. I only intend to trim but since it's so expensive so my as well cut more la, more tai ma. I realise that after i cut my hair i actually look younger! I dun wanna look so young ar...Izzit a good thing or a bad thing?

What a few days

I haven't updated my blog since I came back to jb/kl

My endless complain never stops even when I come back, and I still have so many things to complain. I wish my house do have internet so i need not visit McD so often. There are times where I have my supper, then breakfast and lunch in McD. BUT i'm not a McD addict! >,<

Well, i still wanna admit that JB is also a boring place to be, hmm...how to say ler...BORING LAR!
Just to share my experience, i was force by my mum to see a dentist for scaling, she was so busy that she ask me to walk over since the shop lot is just opposite. On my way, there came this guy on a bike stop by me request me to lend him my phone cause his car broke down and his hand phone battery flat already. This is super duper ridiculous lor, how can you be on a bike when your car broke down, you think your bike is folderable to keep in your boot mer? Siao

Anyways, crazy me is very suspicious, but a split of mind, i did lend him my phone. I really siao d! LOL. While he was on the phone, he ask me to company him to his car, this request really too over liao lor, so i took back my phone and left. BUT he came back to me asking me to lend him my phone again to ask for address. This guy is really crazy, you are in a carpark, what address do you wanna ask??? and so i left. So gratful that he did not ATTACK me.

Then my mum came to pick me for lunch. We were having porriage in this shop. Suddently this random uncle came out from no where, standing beside my mum started grumbling. He grumbles about his illness saying he got stroke whole body sengek one side, no money pay medical bill and so and so for around 10 mins! This is so crazy man, i ignore him but my mum lost her appetite. We did not donate him any money still. Uncle please stop grumbling and go get a decent job ok......

So i had bad experience in JB

Something i find it interesting when i went back for family gathering. My aunt said she received a letter from General Hospital (GH), so she though it might be asking her to pay the medical of my Ah mah. For your information, my Ah mah passed away around easter. Amazingly, instead of paying money, GH actually ask my aunt there to refund the deposit, cause GH wasn't able to successfuly keep my Ah mah alive. Amazing rite?


Happily I came back to Subang, had lunch with Huey at Sushi Zanmai. I lurve sushi and sashimi! So sad that i do not have a camera, it makes life much more boring...I really wanna curse the person that stolen my camera! karma will hit you one day!

Financial crisis is hitting me yet both of us went shopping happily. I really gotta tighten my belt when i'm back in Miri!!!

As usual i'm alone boring in my room doing nothing, and Jacq ajak me out since she's boring too.
I told her i wana stay home then she told me i have plently time to stay home when i'm back to Miri. Make sense! LOL. And then Kenny ajak her out. Cause it' kenny's birthday. Happy Birthday to kenny! I highly recommended Sushi Zanmai and therefore we went there for dinner.

After dinner i really wanna hang out around there but not speding much money. Since there is not FREE place to hang around, finally we settle ourselves in Republic to have a drink. It's quite costly to me after i saw the menu, but bo pian lar. I ordered Mandarine Mojito, thinking that it will be some nice drink. Cause Mojito was introduce to me by my housemate when i was in states, and it taste really good. Who know this Mandarine Mojito turns out to be some bitter drink with a slice of orange and lots of mint leaves which i don't really enjoy. I drank it holding my breath so i don't taste its bitterness. Kesian me pay to toture myself.

Because we are too boring, so we decide to finish our drink before twelve, not because we are cinderella, this is to avoid paying extra charges for taxi. Too bad we informed Winnie too late, she couldn't join us.

It so boring till me looking at Jacq and she looking back at me. Guess what she told me? She ask me too have a few look at her if not I won't be seeing her so soon. How sad...

Then we went back home seperately.

Semangat me then cari Winnie go mamak yum cha. Then dunno why it started raining and the wind is super strong... Cold~

And we chit chat and chit chat and chit chat. Then we decided to go home, cause we're going to sing K tommorow morning! Hope that either one of us will wake up to give morning call so we are able to arrive on time.

After meeting up with them, it feels really good when you have some one to talk to and to share your thoughts. Relieve~ but i still feel very restless with my life...

Anyways, i'm going Sing K tmr, gonna shout it out!!!

Let's Rock 'n' Roll baby!